One of the things that I tried to do last year that I didn’t have the mental capacity for was committing to myself.  I really wanted 2021 to be a year that I did all the things I said I was going to do.  But I didn’t factor in the fact that I was going to have a baby which makes committing to yourself utterly impossible.

So, here we are in 2022, and commitment to myself is something I’m giving a shot.  In that theme, I started my own version of the 75 hard challenge.  

A couple of reasons I didn’t just jump into the standard version of 75 hard:

• I knew I’d quit within the first week.  I have two kids under 3 and I don’t have the time or the will to workout for an hour and a half every day.  

• I wanted the tasks I was doing every day for 75 days to benefit me in different areas than what the normal version focuses on. They say they ain’t a fitness challenge but it feels a whole lot like a fitness challenge.
• The goals I’ve set for myself in my version are things I’d like to keep up once the 75 days is up. Yay for new and awesome habits!

A couple of reasons I decided to do a version of 75 hard:

• I love the mental challenge aspect of it.  My mental resilience is something that I’d like to beef up.
• I really wanted to make and keep a commitment to myself.  I want to show 2021 me that we had to be where she was so she could get us to where I am, if that makes sense.
• I want to build some new habits.  Habits that make me feel good!

The goals I have for each day are

• Doing a morning routine

I’ve been aching to get back into a morning routine since we had Deklan.  He’s 9-months-old now and I find myself waking up with the kids and then getting irritated with them for being themselves.  When I am able tog et up before them and get some quiet time in, I’m a much more pleasant person to be around.  And I feel like I’m showing up as a much better version of myself. 

I’m two days into the challenge and this one has been tough both days.  I honestly think it has something to do with my subconscious not wanting me to get the alone time I so desperately desire.  It’s making this one a struggle.  I’m excited to journal more on it to see where that takes me.

• Drink a gallon of water

This has been surprisingly easy so far.  It’s like I just look at my cup and remember I have to drink.  I think it’s helping Charley stay a bit more hydrated too because I’m getting her water almost every time I get myself more.  Follow me for more parenting hacks.

• One workout per day

One workout has also been deceptively easy so far.  I do anticipate this one to be a little tougher on the weekends when Paul’s hanging around but we’ll see.  I’d also like to note that I’m not talking strenuous workouts.  Movement of my body is what I mean so moseys and yoga count here for me.

• Post on Instagram twice a day

Posting on Instagram twice per day was one of the reasons I started this challenge.  I am wanting to focus on growing my audience and also my voice as an expert in dealing with emotions.  This one has been twofold and it’s also really fun.  I love Instagram and the connections I’ve made with people from around the globe are so awesome.

• Read 10 pages per day of a self-help book

I kept 10 pages from a self-help book from the standard version because I love, love, love self-help books.  Anything I can do to keep working on myself so that I can show up fully for me as myself is my kryptonite.  I’m writing my own too so it gives me a deeper insight into how to connect with readers.

• Clean for 30 minutes per day

Cleaning for 30 mins a day.  This one.  I snuck this one on at the very last minute, after I’d already made the commitment to myself.  A part of me thinks I added it just to make sure I had something to stress about.  But really, I love having a clean house and I don’t always make time to do it.  I love the sense of accomplishment when the house is clean and you know you did it.

But for real, the cleaning has been a total struggle.  Because honestly, I don’t love it.  When I clean, I get all up in my head and have imaginary fights with Paul.  I think about how I’m going to make my kids clean up every mess.  My whole ego comes out when I clean.

So that’s been an interesting thing to notice about myself over the past couple of months.  I’m an angry cleaner and not that I’m trying to change that now but I’m trying to change that now.  When I was growing up, cleaning was like this thing to fight over.  Who was doing what?  Did they have to do as much work as me?  Is there clean as good as mine?

I don’t know why but that’s just how cleaning has always felt to me.  As I’ve gotten older, that’s tempered down a bit but I still definitely always give Paul a piece of my mind in my imagination about how messy he is.

Lately, I’ve switched from imaginary fighting to imaginary vacationing.  That’s a much nicer spot to clean from and I’m sure the Law of Attraction is working on my all-expense paid trip to Greece next summer.

It’s only been two days and I anticipate that I’ll be giving you guys more updates about this as I move through it.  I’m excited to see my process play out over the next 75 days.  I am also really looking forward to feeling like a total Divine Feminine Goddess at the end of it.  Stay tuned!